Everyone DOES want to be famous...

Don't ever tell anyone that you're making a film.

Not even your friends.

ego: So, Lauren, what's been new.

me: I've been writing.

ego: Oh, whatcha workin' on?

me: I've been working on it a long time (crossing fingers, wincing, saving energy for the writing, not the talking part)

ego: What kind of work? are you a poet or an essayist?

me: (whimper) it's a short film.

ego: REALLY!?!?!? Could you write me a part!! ---or--- CAN I BE IN IT!!!????

me: ugh.

or

me: (more appropriately) I'm so grateful for your enthusiasm. Thank you for your support, here's my card, check the site. we'll be in touch.
ciao baby.


I'm just laughing about this, because I really find in my generation and the younger ones, we grew up worshipping television and film, so now, as adults or individual thinkers, we want nothing more than to be in the box, to be on that screen, to have our name in lights. This isn't just a 1 in a million thing, this is a secret desire of the masses.

I've noticed this.

Even in myself.

Fortunately, I have the rationality to know that it is DANGEROUS to be famous nowadays. I feel sad for all those poor saps at the front of the grocery check out, Angelina, Paris, all these one namers that are worshipped.

I wish fucking people would focus on our politicians and power position people, rather than the celebrities used as a distraction for the masses (do you remember Animal Farm? When the supremicist pigs bring in a television to mesmerize the masses of the other farm animals??)

I'm off topic here. It's dangerous to be famous. That's all I'm saying. Let's just use our skills to make a difference in this illusory world.

Much love, people. I hope I didn't offend anyone. I just kid. But I can't tell you HOW MANY people start posing when they get in front of me nowadays.

kissy myspace faces and sending me photos and resumes of their junior high acting highlight.

Rock out everybody. I'll make sure to stain the new 42 page unfinished with lots of red wine while i'm out of the state.